memories swallow me (diary of a cheater)

memories swallow me

hands in my hair
on my cheek
a gentle voice
"i love you"

softness
a shoulder
fingers tracing patterns on my palm
a whisper
"ditto"
the bursting of my heart

silence
silence
arms around me
a hand on my back
stubble
silence

cheers
jeering
laughter
the aggressive, impersonal kisses
of spin the bottle

silence
heat

"ditto"